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This will  be my parting entry for my blog. We’ve had some good times, and rough times. I know I still have issues, but I don’t think posting them on the internet will resolve them. I think everyone should know the truth; true. I want people to know all my problems and issues and look at me as mess up; not true. But it’s not like I didn’t want them too before. It’s all about attention. I’m not an attention hog and I certainly don’t crave attention every hour of the day, but I don’t want to fade into the backround, even if that’s dramatic. I want people to notice me. But I don’t need this blog anymore. That’s the whole reason for this.

I have things to occupy myself, the VTN -though that now seems like a special occasion that work- my diary; I bought a Twilight journal and have been writing in it for a week now, I have my books -though that sounds totally loserish- and I have people. Friends, things to do with them. It doesn’t all have to be hobbies.

I know I’ll come to this site and look back on all my posts and possibly laugh at my youngness and  naivness. I will remember and feel a wave of nostalgia. And I will know I’ve grown up and mattured, and’ve gone through expiriences I don’t know about to make me knowledgable. Tata. ❤




So, there is some things you just can’t say to a person’s face. For starter’s, “You look fat, you fat ass.” Or, “I don’t necassarily like you as a person.” twilight-new-moon-movie-poster And I haven’t said any of these things out loud to another person, doesn’t mean I don’t think them, right? I mean, c’mon, we all do! So, if you don’r, and if you say, “Oh! That looks great on you!” Or, “Your a nice person and I enjoy you!” Does that mean your lieing? Or your just being ‘nice’? This little analogy brings me my new truthness, ‘No-Lying’. I am gonna feel good about this, not that I haven’t told people the brutal truth before, and I have told some recent lies I will let out. Here’s my list:

  • Halloween
  • Social Plans
  • Rules with Parents
  • Sister
  • Caring About School

Okay, Halloween. I told Blondie and Lucy I was sick so that I couldn’t go trick or treating with them, and at 13 trick or treating is a little immature, right? So I told that lie; that I was sick. The truth is I was sick earlier, puking my guts out and a major migraine, but when I called Lucy and told her I couldn’t I was fine. I felt really bad, but I wasn’t about to just show up at her house after I cancelled. How rude would that be? So, I made other plans. I know it probably wasn’t very nice. But since when is my motto nice? It’s not. So, instead I went to Poplar Point with Monicat/Kroner, Kyra, Amber, Andrew and Wendy(This really nice woman who runs a building here). There was a bunch of other people too. The reason we went was because there was this truly haunted house and we investigated and got to interview the owner’s, Heather and Frank. Their really old and nice, duh. Sorry Blondie and Lucy, I know it was wrong and stuff, and I also know it was our last Halloween together and I should have wanted to go, but what can you do now, right?

Second on my list is Social Plans. Well, this one and Halloween kind of go hand-in-hand. I have lied to other people about plans with people(friends, etc.). W.e. No big deal here. Except the lying part … Sorry.

Third is Rules With Parents. This is simple; you know when you say ‘Yeah I’m gonna stop this and so on,’ or ‘yeah I’ll clean my room right away.’ It’s like that. I do things they ask, and I do them as soon as I can. But when I say I’ll stop unfolding all my clothes by accident, I usually don’t. It’s not a habit, it’s a life style. Sorry.

Fourth is Sister. Duh. I lie to my sister. Obvs. Everyone lies to their sister. I lie about feeling sorry for my grandparents not liking ehr as much as me, or her weight, or her sleeping disorder. Some things you can’t care about.  And why should I feel sorry for her? Not like she does for me. Oh, right and when I say ‘I believe you can get through High School,’ I don’t mean it. Sure, she’s bright, and she’s persistant, but she has A.D.D and she doesn’t care. She skips, she’s reckless, and even though she’s stopped doing drugs it’s only gotten worse. A lost cause some people would say. Sorry, sis. I wish I could help.

Fifth is Caring About School. I care, I do. But to a certain level. If I get 69% on a Math test, I say, ‘w.e next time I’ll do better.’ If I get 69% on a Social test, there’s a deep failure inside me that goes to my heart to the bottom of my stomach. I don’t know what it is. Maybe because I actually study for my Social, and English, but I just wing the Math and Science. It’s Mr. C-E’s’ fault. I hate him, and vice versa. How can you learn from someone you absolutely can not stand? Exactly. Not sorry for that. Well, I guess sorry to my parents.

I don’t always lie, but I do. Weirdness, oddness. Odd is such an odd word! HAHAHAH. I thought I’d feel beter getting all of this stuff off my chest …. But I feel worse. 😦 Tata. ❤

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Twilight, as you all know, is my favorite thing in the whole wide world. So I decided to put quotes on here. I want to put 3 quotes a day from now on. Here are my favorite quotes:

You know, Jacob, you’re awfully self-righteous — considering that you’re a werewolf and all.
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 4, p.111

Well… don’t be offended, but you smell like a dog.
Edward Cullen, Eclipse, Chapter 6, p.144

I was all braced for the wrath that was going to put grizzlies to shame, and this is what I get? I should infuriate you more often.
Edward Cullen, Eclipse, Chapter 8, p.186

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