FOR ALL MY FELLOW FOLLOWER’S AND BLOG MATES!!<3

Edward Cullen and his smexy piano <<<333

I have a major headache right now, I don’t feel like posting, but I owe it to all my Fellow Follower’s and Blog Mates. I have discovered new things about me, in this short amount of time alone. I have found my new favorite song. I have found things I like and don’t like, in social standards. Like the KyraKrew. I have found I don’t like all the things they do, such as drugs, and I will rise against it. I have already seen that change in myself. I do love hanging out with them, and all the crazy things they do. I just let free with them and be myself, well not entirely myself but close enough to the real me. I have no idea what ‘the real me’ is though. I guess I will find out in time, I will find out from my likes and dislikes and the people I hate. Who knows, maybe one day those people will become the one people I can relate to, and the people I tend to shy away from will become the only people I can get close to, and the people who I can relate to now, will only grow away … I don’t know if that’s what I want, but it’s all in the process of growing. I have no control over what fate holds for me. I may be in control of what I do and say, but the future is a mystery. I have to admitt that that terrfies me. I might even start crying. But this is for me, and my Fello Follower’s and Blog Mates, that I am doing this. Expressing my feelings is one of the hardest things for me, I tend to get a little nervous and frightened thinking about what people will think of me if I write them down. But telling people what I think has never been a problem. I don’t like that way my brain works. It sucks. But it’s me. People, I think, have always known me for telling people exactly what I think. I don’t necassarily care if it hurts people, because I feel great when I do it. Except, of course, if it is people I care about deeply. I would like to move onto a less antagonistic subject.

My sister’s sweet sixteen! That’s gonna be fun. My sister invited Blondie, because, for some strange reason, she likes her. I happen to think Blondie and Kyra are opposites, but if she likes her I have no reason to object. She doesn’t want any of my other friends to come because, from what she’s heard from me, TB is too violent and Loosy is too fake. 🙂 Good for her! She has half the truth. I never thought, though, that out of those three she’d pick Blondie. Not that Blondie isn’t my favorite, I just don’t think of her s a people person, per se. 🙂 Well I am getting quite hungry, not unusual for a walrus. Tata.